today's my second day of driving lessons. it feels so good to go behind the wheel again. i havent driven in more than half a year. highlight of the day, i conquered the freeway! was going 70mph in a 65 speed limit weeeeeee. thats around 110 115 kmph. my mom was right, its different in the freeway. at first i didnt want to take driving lessons because i could go 80 back home. then she reminded me that they use miles in here nyahaha. but my instructor said i was good (for a first time in the freeway). few more lessons and i'll be ready for my road test which is in less than 2 weeks. if i pass, i'll be licensed in california weeeeeee.

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

You don't know me, you don't even care...

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.


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this song reminds me of college days. it was played in the seniors' video thats why it always brings nostalgia. this song also reminds me of the dream i have.

i dont hate california weather..i looove california weather. but my heart goes to boston..always had and always will. i want to feel the four seasons..i want snow and boston clam chowder. i dreamt of going to boston when i was a kid. i fell in love with the place the very first time. i still havent forgotten about that dream and one day i will live in boston. i just know it.

i called up tita trish this morning and she's happy to accept me as a volunteer for her preschool! ill be here for a good 3 months hopefully so a little something to do will make my stay here worth it. i will probably assist classes in the morning. it will require a change in lifestyle since they start at 8 in the morning but ill be happy to change my lifestyle anyway. i have become this insomniac/nocturnal freak who cant sleep until the clock says its already four in the morning. tita trish is still going to text me my final schedule since she's gonna meet up with her teachers to know who would need an extra hand. i might start on monday. i will be assisting in the preschool and come september, probably doing a few things for kumon. im not sure what exactly but she mentioned something about needing help in kumon next month. i know preschool is faaaaaaaar from my long term goals/plans. from a degree in psychology to wanting to pursue a career in dentistry and now teaching preschool so i can make use of my time while i wait for the decision of the schools i applied to. well for one, it would save me from boredom and from being idle the whole day.

anton has been my textmate this past few days because he also has so much time in his hands hahaha. and because he requested for this, okay i am going to mention him in this entry. im missing everyone badly..most especially you ton (happy na?) hahaha...but really i do miss everyone.

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I’m with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain every time I hear your name

Chorus:
The sun won’t shine since you went away
Seems like the rain’s falling every day
There’s just one heart, where there once was two
But that’s the way it’s gotta be,
‘til I get over you…

Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can’t escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop fallin’
Where can I run so I won’t feel alone
Can’t walk away when the pain keeps callin’
I’ve just gotta take it from here on my own
But it’s so hard to let go

these are sooooo cute!!! :)

Oh no, no, no, no

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Tagged by celyn

Seven things I want to do before I die:

1. be able to sleep alone in my own room/condo or watever
2. go ice skating at the rockefeller center
3. travel around the world
4. learn how to surf
5. get married at some old church in europe
6. get my own condo/house and car
7. get drunk..even just once..hehe


Seven things I cannot do:

1. have a pet
2. draw properly --> me sad cel. all i can do are stick figures..hehe
3. bungee jump
4. eat balot..hehehe
5. wear a t-back..hahaha
6. wear a tampon..hehe i cant think of anything anymore!
7. have a one night stand :p

Seven things that attract me to both a boy and a girl:

1. nice teeth
2. good sense of humor
3. clean fingernails and toe nails
4. sporty
5. street-smart
6. if he's a gentleman (opens the door for you..stuff like that)
7. thoughtful


Seven things that I say most often:

1. watever
2. shiyet..hahaha
3. helooo
4. okay lang
5. huh?
6. oh my god!
7. pootik..hehehe i know it doesnt sound nice

Seven books I love to read:

1. body language
2. 7 habits for highly effective teens
3. chicken soup
4. road less traveled
5. shopaholic series
6. the alchemist
7. pride and prejudice

Seven movies I could watch over and over again:

1. serendipity
2. centerstage
3. click
4. sweet home alabama
5. a lot like love
6. cheaper by the dozen
7. just like heaven

Seven people I'm tagging to do this survey:

1. maan
2. patet
3. migoy
4. chloe
5. bea bor
6. carol
7. anton

He met her on a party. She was so
outstanding, many guys chasing after her,
while he so normal, nobody paid attention to
him.


At the end of the party, he invited her to have
coffee with him, she was
surprised, but due to being polite, she
promised. They sat in a nice coffee

shop, he was too nervous to say anything,
she felt uncomfortable, she
thought, please, let me go home....
suddenly he asked the waiter. "would
you please give me some salt? I'd like to put
it in my coffee."

Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face
turned red, but still, he put
the salt in his coffee and drank it.

She asked him curiously; why you have this
hobby? He replied: "when I was a
little boy, I was living near the sea, I like
playing in the sea, I could

feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of
the salty coffee. Now
every time I have the salty coffee, I always
think of my childhood, think of
my hometown, I miss my hometown so
much, I miss my parents who are still
living there". While saying that tears filled his
eyes. She was deeply
touched.

That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his
heart. A man who can tell
out his homesickness, he must be a man
who loves home, cares about home, has
responsibility of home.

Then she also started to speak, spoke about
her faraway hometown, her
childhood, her family. That was a really nice
talk, also a beautiful
beginning of their story.


They continued to date. She found that
actually he was a man who meets all
her demands; he had tolerance, was kind
hearted, warm, careful. He was such
a good person but she almost missed him!
Thanks to his salty coffee!


Then the story was just like every beautiful
love story , the princess
married to the prince, then they were living
the happy life... And, every
time she made coffee for him, she put some
salt in the coffee e, as she knew
that's the way he liked it.

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a
letter which said: "My dearest,
please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie.
This was the only lie I said
to you --- the salty coffee.


Remember the first time we dated? I was so
nervous at that time, actually I
wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was
hard for me to change so I just
went ahead.I never thought that could be the
start of our communication! I
tried to tell you the truth many times in my life,
but I was too afraid to
do that, as I have promised not to lie to you
for anything..


Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you
the truth: I don't like the
salty coffee, what a strange bad taste..But I
have had the salty coffee for
my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel
sorry for anything I do for
you. " Having you with me is my biggest
happiness for my whole life. If I
can live for the second time, still want to know
you and have you for my
whole life,even though I have to drink the salty
coffee again". Her tears
made the letter totally wet.Someday,
someone asked her: what's the taste of
salty coffee?

It's sweet. She replied.


Love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see
but to understand, not to
hear but to listen, not to let go but to hold on!

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you
crying?" "Because I'm a
woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just
hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why
does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad
could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man,
still wondering why women cry..

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got
on the phone, he asked, "God, why do
women cry so easily?"

God said

"When I made the woman she had to be
special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry
the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to
give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure
childbirth and the rejection that many times
comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep
going when everyone else gives up, and take
care of her family through sickness and
fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children
under any and all circumstances, even when
her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband
through his faults and fashioned her from his
rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good
husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes
tests her strengths and her resolve to stand
beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is
hers exclusively to use whenever it is
needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a
woman is not in the clothes she wears, the
figure that she carries, or the way she combs
her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her
eyes, because that is the doorway to her
heart - the place where love resides."

"...HERE'S one short story: the night before their wedding, the guy went to his girlfriends house. While waiting for his girlfriend at the living room, his girlfriend's hot sister told him, 'If you'd like to have sex with me, im upstairs!' He stood there, shocked and a bit confused. Then he made up his mind and turned his bck to go to his car parked outside. To his surprise, his girlfriend was waiting outside with tears in her eyes saying, 'You passed the test, I'm happy to be your wife!'

The MORAL LESSON of the story is: Always keep your condoms in your car!

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from
heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship
that's not meant to be.
Slower is better!
Never live your life for a man before you find what
makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not
treating you as you deserve then heck no, you
can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a
friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you
along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying
when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is
you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a
bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from
his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it
against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change
comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important
than you are...even if he has more education or in
a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.!
He is a man, nothing more..., nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on
you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him
to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the
bending...compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between
relationships...there is nothing cute about
baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a
new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE
you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE
individuals...look for someone complimentary...not
supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr.
Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...! when a man
always know where you are, and your always
readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you
everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies.....
You'll make someone SMILE, another RETHINK
her choices, and another woman PREPARE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special
person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love
them ........and an entire lifetime to forget them.

WHEN i RUN AWAY FROM YOU
- FOLLOW ME


WHEN i POUT MY LiPS
- KiSS ME


WHEN i KiCK
- HUG ME TiGHT


WHEN i CALL YOU CRAZY
- iM CRAZY ABOUT YOU


WHEN i AM SiLENT
- iM THiNKiNG OF HOW TO SAY i LOVE
YOU


WHEN i iGNORE YOU
- i WANT ALL YOUR ATTENTiON


WHEN i PULL AWAY
- GRAB ME BY THE WAiST & TELL ME
YOU'LL
NEVER LET ME GO


WHEN YOU SEE ME AT MY WORST
- TELL ME iM BEAUTiFUL


WHEN i SCREAM AT YOU
- TELL ME YOU LOVE ME


WHEN YOU SEE ME WALKiNG
- SNEAK UP BEHiND ME, & REST UR
HEAD ON
MY SHOULDER


iF I DONT CALL YOU
- iM WAiTiNG BY THE PHONE FOR
YOUR CALL


WHEN iM SCARED
- HOLD ME BY THE WAiST


WHEN i LOOK LiKE SOMETHiNGS THE
MATTER
- KiSS ME & TELL ME EVERYTHiNG
WiLL BE
ALRiGHT


WHiLE i HOLD YOUR HANDS
- PLAY WiTH MY FiNGERS

i just finished my practicum at the medical city last saturday. i cant believe i finished the 150 hours..it seemed so fast. plus i was able to survive not having internet connection at home..and it sucks. its a good thing im spending the weekend with my other cousins. at least they have internet connection. how i miss the internet..hehehe :)

ill be home in four days!! im soooo excited!! but ill be in cebu on the 29th until the 4th of june. i wont be back in manila until the 15th. and thats 9 months more until graduation. *sigh*

hello people! i just updated my multiply a while ago but i wasnt able to update my livejournal because it wont access from the golf club's computer. so now im using my cousin's laptop while he still studies for his japanese. we went up the highest peak of the highlands a while ago. it was cooler...nice:) we have two more days then im back to work and school. but i think im enjoying work anyway so its okay. plus my parents may come here two weeks from now because they might accompany jannelle. shopping time again..hahaha but i have work everyday so i might not be able to go with them except on weekends. i miss having internet conncection. *sob sob*

this long weekend is pig-out time for all of us. last night we ate at a korean restaurant. today lunch time we had chinese buffet and for dinner we had japanese. tomorrow lunch we're going to their steak house and for dinner the shabu-shabu located on the peak of the highlands. and then i think we're going to antonio's monday and then this greenland bistro where all they serve are vegetable dishes..thats cool. its always like this when we go with our aunt..all our meals are planned. when we go to hongkong with them...same thing. they get everything well planned. as a result, i put on a few extra pounds.

oh well..i have to go.

after a few weeks or so, i can now access the internet. well, i still dont have internet connection at work so im using the computers in school. i came here because we had our practicum class and i researched about the GD we are going to present tomorrow for work. okay so i started working yesterday. its fun actually. the patients are not as psychotic and violent as i thought. and im thinking im starting to enjoy working in a hospital. well..hospital like medical city of course. i think im better off working in a hospital than in an office..you think? i think so. plus we can choose our schedule so its double yehey. tomorrow im working half day again. i cant go in the afternoon because i have an appointment with my dentist. oh well..its fine. starting friday, im working whole day already.

okay so its almost 530 i have to call home to pick me up. it was such a relief to be able to update my multiply and livejournal and of course check my mail. i had 100+ mails..whoa! oh yeah..i got appointed secretary general for DARS for this coming school year!hehehe one of their officers was sending an email about the positions they had open for application and so i just sumbitted an application form not really hoping to get appointed. but i was!!! yehey!!! so now i will have activities outside the dorm already. im already a senior...yes im already a senior...so its about time to participate in other school activities and be more confident and out-going..hahaha :)

okay i have to go...ill try to update again next week when i come back to school. and oh yeah..our new ID looks awful. its not the usual vertical ID we had. they switched it with the ID of the staff so now our IDs are horizontal. plus my picture is bad!!huhuhu okay have to go..see ya!:)

im going back to manila tomorrow. i dont know if i want to go back already or not. a part of me wants to but a part of me also wants to stay home. i might not have internet during the summer at my aunt's house so that's not a good thing. i need internet. i just dont know how im going to survive the summer without it. so im also half excited about working in medical city and wearing all white and all that. i would be working whole day so i dont know what it would be like being in the hospital most of the time. i dont know if i will enjoy it or if i will get bored.

right now, we're not on speaking terms..again. for two days now..isnt that cool?hehehe i dont want to go into the little details anymore. i dont want to remember what happened that night. all i can say is that it started with a small argument and it led to this. oh well...i think im getting immuned..as what i said in my friendster shout out box.

so why havent i been updating? well i have nothing to say. all i do here at home is eat and sleep and internet and thats almost it. my cousins went home yesterday so the house is quiet once again..well except for my grandma's shrieking voice. two days ago, we visited our grandparents' house in cadiz. it was huge and it was not as scary as they would talk about it. well, my aunt said its not actually scary in the morning. evening -- it is. some of my cousins thought it was like a haunted house. no it isnt. its my second time there. nobody's living there anymore except for 2 maids and a guy who opens the gate. the rooms were hot and the walls were kind of destroyed already. there were still stuff inside the closet of my grandparents' room and some perfume and nail polish. that house has been there since 1963 so its been standing there for 43 years now. the headboard of the bed my aunt used is still intact. we found old pictures in the office. and we saw one of the fishing boats they used to have. so thats it. it was my cousin who drove so it took us 45mins to reach cadiz.

so maybe this would be my last update since i wont have internet during the summer. i would want to have one but ill be staying in my aunt's house. if i want to use to internet, i will have to go up to my cousin's room which i may not be able to do that often. anyway..what the hell.

oh yeah..we went to an easter vigil mass last night and it lasted for 2 hours and a half. it was the longest mass ive ever been to. okay happy easter everyone!!! :)

[x] I have eaten more than 5 meals a day.
[x] I have read a lot of books.
[ ] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[ ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[x] I have been to Canada.
Total = 3

[x] I have been to Europe.
[x] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[ ] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[ ] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[ ] I have been snowboarding/skiing.
Total = 2

[x] I have played ping pong.
[ ] I swam in the ocean.
[x] I have been on a whale watch.
[x] I have seen fireworks.
Total = 3

[ ] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I have almost drowned.
[x] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
Total = 1

[x] I have listened to one cd over & over & over again.
[x] I have had stitches.
[x] I have been on the honor roll.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there
[x] I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.
[ ] I currently have a job.
[ ] I have been ice skating.
[ ] I have been rollerblading.
[ ] I have fallen flat on my face.
Total = 4

[x] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[ ] I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight.
[ ] I have passed out from being drunk.
[x] I have watched power rangers.
Total = 2

[x] I do attend Church regularly.
[x] I have played truth or dare.
[x] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[x] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[x] I've lost weight since one year ago.
Total = 5

[x] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[x] I've been in a verbal argument.
[x] I've cried in school.
[ ] I've played basketball on a team.
Total = 3

[ ] I've played baseball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[x] I've played soccer on a team.
[x] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[ ] I've been on a swim team.
[ ] I've been on a golf team.
Total = 2

[x] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[ ] I've climbed a rock wall.
[ ] I've lost more than $20.
[x] I've called myself an idiot.
[x] I've called someone else an idiot.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.
[ ] I've had (or have) pets.
Total = 4

[ ] I've owned a spice girls cd.
[ ] I've owned a britney spears cd.
[x] I've owned an N*Sync cd.
[x] I've owned a backstreet boys cd.
Total = 2

[x] I've mooned someone.
[x] I've sworn at someone in authority.
[x] I've been in the newspaper.
[ ] I've been on TV.
Total = 3

[x] I've been to Hawaii.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[ ] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[x] I've watched all of the Harry Potter movies.
Total = 3

[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[ ] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[x] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[x] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker.
Total = 2

[ ] I've been called a geek.
[x] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[x] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
Total = 2

[ ] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[x] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[ ] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested.
Total = 1

[x] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[x] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[x] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[x] I've had/have siblings.
[ ] I've been to a rock concert.
Total = 4

[x] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
Total = 2

mark texted me this morning that we got accepted in medical city. well, its not really something for me to be happy because id really want to work in the preschool in dasma and live in a condo in makati. thats how i imagine my life would be in the summer. work in the morning and then hang out at night. but, since i will have to live with my aunt if i work in medical city then all those things wont happen anymore and im sad. plus i dont want to work in a psychiatric ward. i want to be in a preschool. however, it seems that my mom wont allow me now that she knows im okay with medical city already. so my summer plans are ruined.

its just that im so used to living in the dorm and id want to be independent and living with my aunt in the summer is just not the thing for me. but what can i do..thats what my parents want.

i just cant belive it. in 3 days time, ill be a senior already -- well not officially but since ill be done with my requirements so its still the same..hehe at this time next year, i dont know where ill be..haha it seems that my life still has no direction..i dont know what i want to be and what i want to do. i still want to go to school after i graduate, probably a masters degree or go into dentistry in the states. the problem is they're so expensive. even though my parents keep on saying i dont have to worry about the financial stuff, i feel guilty. one year of school there, you can build a really nice and big house complete with furnitures. so if i study dentristry, which means at least 5 years, my parents can build five houses already. but, if i work, what will i do? hay..i really dont know.

okay i have to work on my analysis paper for social psych. i really have to make this good, to make up for everything.

tomorrow is the dreaded day. i hope i say something sensible. i hope i dont get a mental block-out. i hope i do good this finals. *sigh*

now its time to philosophize.

i just got an email from carmie asking me if i can go to their pre-school on monday because their directress wants to meet me!!! *keeping my fingers crossed* ooohhhh i do hope i get accepted. please please please pray for me. i still dont have a place for practicumthis summer plus id want to work in a preschool. i do hope and pray i get accepted.

okay i have to start studying for philo already. i cant believe its going to be sunday tomorrow and my orals is on tuesday. and i just hate myself for not being able to wake up. throughout the entire sem, i cut only twice and those two times were also the times my teacher gave bonus points for the long test. how great could life get??? plus i blew my last long test :( im so sad.

ill just get back to work. ill see if ill be able to accomplish something tonight.